Call me WHITE, because I am.

My Dearest Tammy and Van,
I have to thank you and color code. I went to a wedding today for someone that was a friend while I was in high school. Her whole family was a big part of my life growing up. I just wanted you to know that prior to color code I would have talked myself out of going. Call me white because I am. I definitely allowed my fears to keep me from others. I have not always been this way. I was very outgoing in high school but I have allowed events in my life to build a wall of fear to contain me. I used my responsibilities of family life to keep me from experiencing life as an individual. I have truly missed all the people that were very dear to me while I was growing up. I can't quite describe the feeling. I had to overcome some fears of inadequacies to enjoy my life and to serve others. How rude of me to withhold myself from the people that were so much a part of my young life.

I wish the evening could have lasted a little longer. Goodnight.